Monday, November 23, 2009

Momma said there be days like this.....

Well, it has been A day! There are those days when I lay my head on my pillow at the end of the day and can't help but feel so blessed, so grateful, so encouraged by what God has given hubby and three wonderful babies. Today is NOT that day!

After I finish this post I will lay my head down on my pillow with guilt, remorse, and maybe a little self-hatred. It was a day filled with busyness and LOTS of yelling...all done by me. I knew ahead of time that I had to get more than normal done today....laundry, packing, decorating, babysitting and of course caring for my three kiddos. It really didn't seem like it was going to be a difficult task...but I was WAY wrong.

In the midst of all the daily ruckus was a cranky little girl, a loud mouth 4 year old and a very talkative 7 year old!! I tried...I tried. I failed and failed many times. I found myself screaming and getting very angry at them all today. I am a bit of a sarcastic gal, and it came out in true form today. Instead of just telling them I was done and to go to their rooms, I proceeded to demean them with a quick witty saying. I do the same with Joey and he can always come back with a funny face and make me feel all better....not the same with the kids. I felt bad every time I yelled at them. It was just that kind of day.

I didn't finish the laundry, decorating or packing. And I did a terrible job of being a Christian mother. I can only pray tomorrow I can make a WAY better difference in their lives. I want to be a positive role model not this mean mommy that makes them sad. So there it day in a long nutshell. Tomorrow will be better....right?

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